Spring has sprung
Sing cuckoo! cuckoo!
Bethany's birthday has begun
Sing cuckoo, cuckoo!
I fell asleep last night thinking of a character who wrote a song like this, for his lover's birthday.
(Oh, that Tom from King's Oak) So I changed it around and drifted off making a rhyme. Maybe I was six last time life was that simple, and about rhymes and giggles.
Now, it's not so simple and my thoughts don't rest. It feels strange to turn 35. Like I gots to get a move on, for some reason. Thoughts go back to my journal, and something I wrote when I was 26 or so. Today's age seemed so far away, and I thought any personal aspirations would be well on their way to realization. I'm pretty sure I said 35, as though it were a world away! And any self-respecting achiever should be done by 35, right? It makes me snicker a little now.
So much life between then and now, so many other dreams realized. Hello, 35.
My girls love to hear how I wished for twins when I was a girl, and how that dream came true. What a surprise they were! My boys fit into our mix like puzzle pieces: Cole, the true eldest and diplomatic leader. Phoenix, barreling his way into the cherished last spot, heralding that he will not be denied.
My Rick. I have been with him for almost half my life.
We met in my birthday week, 15 years ago. Call it a fluke, a coincidence, call it synchronicity. That is a story for another time. That is a story of divine intervention.
I am thinking now that it is taking all these years to become truly myself. The fullness of being must be a lifelong journey, turning us inside out in the end. We're on our way to being spirits that shine out, heedless of the skin enclosing us. That's how I feel, on this birthday. Like I should shine right out, smiling along the way.
Here's to letting our lights glow, from the inside out.
Sing cuckoo!
NIce!
ReplyDeleteYou {glow} girl!
ReplyDeleteI cannot wait to see you in April. :)
Besitos,
Susan
Why yes, shouldn't we all have achieved "it" by 35? You are too funny, girl! Hope today was beautiful and happy for you, my friend!
ReplyDeletea belated happy birthday to you Bethany. the years roll by so fast and it's true what they say - the older you get, the faster they roll. I can barely remember where I was and what I was thinking at the age of 35, so you're many many steps ahead of where I was at. but it doesn't really matter - life is an evolving process. it unfolds in the most mysterious of ways. that you wished for twins and then received them is pure magic. that blows me away. have a great day Bethany.
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